Stress

Pre-post note: The more I should not post, the more I post. LOL. Oh, and the past two posts and this one are actually written at the same time frame but I chose to post them up individually, at intervals. =)
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The stress level I have at work, is nothing compared to the amount of stress I experience at home. And I can prove that. I tend to eat when I'm stressed. And that's not healthy but that's something I do to release stress. Here's the maths:

7.5 months training, lost 10 pounds (quite little lah but at least lost something).

At home for 11 days, gained 10 pounds.

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Sad or not!!

Another reason is:

Stress = Frequent updates

No stress = Less updates

And you can see that during my training, I update less and those posts are not as "hot" as the ones I post when I'm stressed. ^_^


Sigh....

The only reason I'm still staying here is because I don't like the environment in other states. Maybe I should just shift out and rent a house or room here. That way I can do anything I want, AND at the same time prove that I can take care of myself, and that I will not die if she's not around. All I need is my PC, my streamyx and my sewing machine (which is hers now so I can actually just buy my own).

I want a life I can look back and be happy I lived like that dammit! Not a life to suite you biddings only.

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Guy? Girl? Guy? Girl?

What if I went up to my mum one day and said, "Mii, as of today, you do not have a daughter anymore. You have now 2 sons."

Will she treat me like my brother and leave me alone with all those work where girls should do and guys should not? I'm sick of being the only child in the house getting scold for not doing this, not doing that. If she doesn't scold my brother just because he's a guy (actually, she basically tends to him like he's a god or something), then I wanna be a guy also. Tell me, what's so special about gender that one has to clasify housework to gender (where the girl does everything and the guy can just laze around the whole day)?

I hate guys...

I hate being a girl...

I hate gender discrimination...

Equal rights and world peace dammit!!

I love my dad

I love my dad more than I love my mum AND my brother. Yes, both of them combined does not come near how much I love my dad. I just wish there was a way for me to show him that and to let him know how special and important he is in my life.

I wish I can control my emotions and not get angry at my dad when he irritates me.
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I wish I can hold my anger when I'm mad at something else but lashes out at my dad just because he was at the wrong place at the wrong time.
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I wish I have many beautiful moments with my dad.
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I wish my dad loves me just as much.
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I wish...
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I'd die earlier than my dad because I can't stand the sight of losing him.

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BLARDY MS Word hung on me

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If you are on YM now, you'd probably see my status message, with the 'busy' icon. Damn suei lah. Why of all times it has to hang when I just completed that portion of my report. And stupid autosave like never worked because I came back to where I last saved, when the restore thing kicked in. Stupid sial. Of all times to hang... sigh... and it's like 4am right now, know? You know how tired it was conjuring those sentences and thinking and thinking and typing or not? Why lah you hang on me. Damn bloody shit, right?

I can just cry right now.

T_T

There goes another hour off tonight's sleep. Sigh....

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all my readers, especially those celebrating (Huwi Yin, Pablo, Lee Na, and anyone else if I missed out your name ^_^;; )






I know it kinda sucks but I tried my best. >_< I know it ain't good enough. I shall practice more. Ganbarimasu~!

Image done using Adobe Photoshop.

My next update might not be so soon because I'm rushing to complete my report. ^_^;; Please be patient. Till then, enjoy the festive holidays~!

<3

Kuchiki Byakuya ish <3

Kaleido Star ish <3

Sora Naegiro is <3

So yeah, I'm going to cosplay as Kuchiki Byakuya in the near future but not as the one with the bad attitude cos I don't like it... yes he's cold and serious but his attitude kinda stinks. Will cosplay the one in episode 62 (yes, to those who don't have it, go grab it NOW!) cos... I luv him there. *swoons* I swore if my heart was made of ice, it became vapor when watching that episode. *sniggers*

And Kaleido Star OVA 2 i out! Out! OUT! Grab that also although only ones available right now are raws. But who cares? It's damn freaking good so yes, go get it now! Now! NOW! Yes, I am crazy dee :p And yes, I will cosplay as Sora Naegiro just cos I love her so much and I'm planning to make at least half of all her costumes in the series, starting from casual to stage outfits. Can't wait wait wait!

OK I shall stop it before I lose my marbles. :p

Comic Fiesta 2005 - part 1

To start off the day, evil high comms said that we are to gather at 9.00am at the roundabout, high comms are to come earlier. I thought why not I head on a little earlier as well since I do know them. Can chit chat and pay my fees and see the list of people going. So there I was making sure I got everything I needed, and I headed there. Upon reaching EP's parking lot, I called Loo Mun to ask whether she's there already but she's not going >_< OK then I called Hsia Liang but I forgot he had a test so will not be joining the bus as well. +_+ I tried calling Li Sa to no avail. Shu Yin did not pick up her phone either. Then I called Khurshid. Basically I just wanted to make sure people I know are there before I head out there like some lunatic. Well enough about the time spent before heading out.

I slept during the 2.5 hour journey so nothing much there either. BUT... we did get lost trying to find the place. And the whole place SUCKED because you know, weekend, jam... so getting lost sucks worse. Oh well.... We did reach (FINALLY!) at about 12.30pm I think and the crowd was HUGE. Hehehe... still can't forget the expression of the ticket booth fella when Li Sa said she wanted 20 tickets. I guess the booth fella was totally shocked. Off to the event...

Being the silly person I am, I forgot the most important thing to bring there.... CASH. >_____< So I did not buy anything on the first day. Sigh... thank goodness I know Fumi & Nox (and now met their cute friend) so they kept a copy of their doujinshi for me. Phew. As usual, they are as cute and genki as ever so I had fun talking to them. Though... Nox had this camcorder and she recorded me, from head to toe O.o She was recording quite a lot of me and yeah, I felt a little shy and also a little weird. ^_^;; Hope they pass me a copy of their recordings or something XD I'll get back to their merchandise later... when I get on to the second day. :p

So as usual, meet up with some people, glomping some people, chatting with some, taking pictures with some, and hanging with EMiNA cyber & Melaka people too. Was fun, really. Though due to lack of time, the amount spent with a single individual is very little T_T Did not get to hang out much with my baby Fritz or with some KL cosplay friends of mine, or even with EMiNA cyber peeps. Oh well, better than nothing. =)

The PA system was bad though. Quite bad actually that the performers look bad on stage. >_< Felt a little pity for them :-/ At one point, Sharil asked me to join him and some others for lunch but I lost him and in the end I did not take any lunch ^_^;; It's normal for me actually when cosplaying or at a cosplay event because... not only do I not feel hungry, I don't have the urge to go for lunch either. It's just.... a cosplayer's fate I guess. =P

Lots of chatting and snapping later, we left CF at 4.30pm and headed to Sunway Pyramid. Ate at Ichiban Ramen which was quite delicious (yum yum) and later on joined my brother for a second round of dinner at Manhattan Fish Market (wa lau die lah I so fat >_< ). Due to my STOOPID brother being STOOPIDLY useless, I dumped him and headed back to find Kristine and Li Sa. Much more fun with these girls, definitely. We just walked walked walked and helped Li Sa get a photo frame for her mum. Then we walked more and stopped outside AnimeTech. Hehehee... I saw a Saber figurine and pointed to Li Sa and she straight away went into her drooling mode and was like looking (more like staring) at the figurine so long and saying how much she wanted it. If only I were working and earning a 5 digit salary, I would have bought it for her there and then. =) Too bad my trainee pay was only RM400 back then which I've spent about half of my total earned during the 7.5 months of work. +_+ A serious proof that she was really attracted to Saber, she even did not smell her Mexican Bun from Papa Roti just beside AnimeTech. And I have posted before how much she loved her Mexican Buns. ;P

Come 9.00pm, we set out of Sunway. It was quite a tiring day and I did not get much sleep in the bus as well because the first 30 minutes or so, we were busy teasing Khurshid and also taking pictures of Giroro hijacking the bus. XD Then it was me and Kristine talking for 1 hour plus. Man, I love that girl. She's like my twin in some ways. *huggles Kristine* When I finally managed to catch 40 winks, we're in Melaka. Great. Oh well, it was a fun journey back and I was going to sleep anyways when I reach home so... no biggie.

Some of them took off to yam cha session but I knew I had to go back ASAP and start planning for the next day's costume + sew the damn costume O.o So I headed straight home, bathed, and started measuring and preparing everything I needed for the next day. This will teach me not to have at least 2 costumes ready before CF.... come to think of it now, I actually did have but I just wanted to go as someone else. >_< Should have just reused any other costumes I had >_> Now only think about it mah too late, right? Baka. +____+;

Then came the second day of CF......

But that's another post. ;p

I, Stupid

This is the exact same post I posted in neXt-Boards. ^_^

ARGH~!!!!!! I'm sooooo stupid. Baka baka baka. Here's the story. I was trying to download episode 18 of Mai Hime and the stupid thing just did not want to move. As in it's not connecting to the tracker (I use BT). So I wanted to redownload the thing.... and what I did was I wanted to delete the torrent (I'm using BitComet) as well as the file (which is 0%). Being the lazy me, I went and clicked Remove --> Remove Task & All Files (cos I'm lazy to delete manually one by one). And what do you know? The WHOLE folder (it comes in a pack, see?) of my Mai Hime download went kapish... kaboom... bye bye... sayonara. >_____< Damn frustrating~!!!!! Sigh....

OMG I still can't believe it. I can blame it because I'm sleepy. I can blame it because I was lazy. I can blame it because I was too impatient to let it connect so I wanted to delete and reconnect (which by the way, still has the same impact... it's still stagnant). So... ARGH~!!!!! Seriously BODOH BODOH BODOH.

*pulls hair*

Summary first

This is a short summary of what's coming up... my post of my Singapore trip.

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Just came back from Singapore. Was a tour organised by my mum and it had to clash with the Singapore EOY Cosplay event >_<

1st Day

- Boarded the bus from Melaka at 6am
- Reached Yong Peng for breakfast at 7.30am
- Reached Kastam, had no problems
- Went straight to Sentosa Island
- Visited the Merlion, Underwater World, Dolphin Lagoon, Images of Singapore, Musical Fountain
- Was in Sentosa from morning till night
- Left Sentosa to our Hotel 81 somewhere I dunno cos I was always sleeping in the bus hahhaha...

2nd Day

- Raining >_<
- Went to River Cruise (lucky after breakfast rain stopped)
- After that we're given 2 hours shopping and also a Quan Yin temple to visit but my father, my brother and I left the group to go to "Singapore's Low Yat" to look at digicam etc. T_T Wanted to get Canon IXUS 700 cos my dad said he will pay half. In the end never get it cos my brother don't allow T_T Now regretting... sigh...
- Lunch (Mongolian buffet)
- Went to Science Centre but only given 1.5 hours which is definitely NOT enough. So short, cannot see finish. Planning to go there again with my brother in 2006 cos we wanna visit the Star Wars exhibition and also maybe if can, we wanna watch IMAX Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire
- Left Science Centre at 4.30pm
- Reached home at 9.00pm
- Very tired... lucky today I applied leave from work else I dead X_X Hahaha....


Overall: Took lots of pictures thanks to my brother who became like a cameraman. How I wish he can come to cosplay events with me and be my photographer XD Sigh... he ask me to pay him money LOL.

Hardworking but lazy

When I am 'hardworking' in the sense where I clean my room, I clean my HDD, I organise my CDs, I sew my costumes, I level my game characters, I tend to be lazy, or more like not having time, to blog. Which is sad because I have like soooooo many things to blog about and all I can afford to do it postpone them. Sigh... Yesterday and today I took unpaid leave and the whole of yesterday was spent cleaning my room (because I'm gonna rearrange the furnitures in my room) and today.... well right now I'm a little free after getting up early in the morning to have breakfast with Li Sa, Kristine and Dexter followed by an hour in Lee Na's place watching America's Next Top Model and then teman-ng her to run some errands. Now I'm here... stuck (kind of) playing Lineage II to level my character while blogging and replying mails at the same time (when my character is resting). I'm thinking of washing my wig or sewing my costume but.... the wig would have to wait till when my mum goes to my grandma's cos... she still don't know yet ^_^;; And they're (parents) out now but they can be back anytime and I don't wanna risk it. So... maybe after this post I'll cut my cloth and all to start sewing. Hope to get it done by this weekend leh if possible. Sigh... if only I had a personal tailor. XD

Happy Birthdays & Happy Anniversary

Happy Birthday Huwi Yin~!!!!

Happy Birthday Della~!!

Finally you girls are getting older. :p


Happy Anniversary to my mum and dad. We often shout at each other, we always have our differences, we never see anything eye to eye, but I'll love both of you till the day I die. That RM75 was nothing compared to what you've sacrificed for me. I'm glad that you thought it was the best anniversary present in your whole 26 years of marriage. I pray both of you remain married and healthy for another 30 years to come.

Today is such a lovely day with birthdays to celebrate, anniversaries to enjoy, a car returning back to the lovely hands of its owner (with of course the expensive cost of RM300++ >_< ), the 5th last day of my training, the day Lineage's Pumpkin event ends, the day I gazed eye to eye into that cute guy, the day that guy looked and noticed me, the day I felt so touched with Kristine's sms, the day I felt so touched at what Doris said, the day where it's the 6th day of December.

Gotta love today.

Bloody pissed at my car!

I thought it was the best car for me, I thought it was meant for me, I loved it soooooo much. But it had to let me down when it mattered a lot. >_< To cut a story short, I did not manage to go out yesterday with some friends because it was too late. And today I told myself, "You're going today" and guess what? Not even 1km after 'taking-off', my car died-ed on me. +_+ Stupid bloody shit. To get back home (a distance of probably 200-300 metres), I had to start and restart the engine AT LEAST 10 times. Can be so suei or not? And my stupid brother HAD to take my mum's car tonight. Stupid. Stupid. STUPID~!!!! *screams* I'm so frustrated now that I might just lash out at the next opportunity (to whoever is the victim, I apologize in advance). I'm just hoping some anime might cheer me up now.... or maybe I'll just work on my costume to have some personal time off. Sigh.... Oh yeah, and when I was whining and bitching about it to Lai Ching (on the phone), my dad HAD to kacau me and talk to me (HELLO???? CAN'T YOU SEE I'M ON THE PHONE?) oh and guess what, just as I was typing this, he entered my room and gave me all sorts of explanation on my car. HELLO??? Do I look like I care right now? You bring me a car right now or let me drive your Waja and it's a different story. But thinking about this, I don't wanna go in this mood. I'd probably drive extra fast and risk killing myself. Not to mention my mood might not be as pleasent when I meet my friends. Thankfully I kept a little composure and just told him, "Don't kacau me now please." But he HAD to retaliate and said, "Everytime you also like this, people try to talk to you you get angry." HELLOOOOOOOO????? Can't you see my bitchy + angry + frustrated + seriously BLACK face??? And then it snapped. Thank god it's not a huge snap. I retorted, "Why you wanna talk to me now? You want me to shout and scold you is it?" >____< I know I'm super rude but please lah... you can see I'm such an angry bitch right now, don't disturb me lah. My face also giving the "I hate everyone" look and the "Come closer and I will kill you" look. Sigh... but I'm feeling much better now. On some loud music, chatting with Hsia Liang and Kristine, and also... cos time passed. About 25 minutes since I started blogging so yeah... I'm at a calmer place in my heart now....

Now that I'm sane...
I got a pretty interesting post coming up. Typed it at work on Friday. Be prepared. :D I think it's quite good. ^_^ Interesting would be the more proper word :)