How do I move on?

I can't seem to forget about it, and I don't want it to affect me in my exams. Everyday I feel like just sending a mean reply and hope I get over it. Another part of me tells me to give back everything I have pertaining to the issue and hope that helps. Yet another side of me tells me to lump everything pertaining to the issue in a box and trash it.

I don't feel like forgiving, and yet I get all worked up everytime I see the other party being happy while I'm stuck being miserable here. And I know there is no way the other party will go down on his knees apologizing and shit. ARGH!!!! Life sucks. People suck. Why do people like to hurt me? Does it bring them joy? Do they do it to make me more 'humble'? No it won't. God knows my ego is as huge as a firetruck. Le sigh....

Exam's coming so soon I don't know what to do. I need my time last 10 times longer before my exams. I still wanna enjoy life dammit :(

Pushing the human limit

What exactly is our limit at various things we do? How many days can we survive without food and water? How long can we hold our breath before we faint? How long can you keep your eyes opened? You get the idea. I was given the 'honor' to test out two human limits in the past week:

How much can someone absorb in their brain before it turns to mush?
Crash course! 38 hours of lecture within the span of 4 days. That's a freaking average of 9 hours a day! First day I paid full attention for the full duration, 2nd day I zoned out a little here and there in the morning (cos it starts at 8am), come the 3rd and 4th day I was zoning out/sleeping so much I missed some parts of the answers being discussed. My only concern is that he did not see me doze off. And I only have about 4 hours of sleep on average during the crash course. Urgh.... +_+

How many hours can someone stay awake without dozing off?
I didn't sleep at all last night because a friend asked me for some help with a raid when I was playing WoW, and the raid lasted about 6 hours or more. I was awake for more than 30 hours straight, about 80% of the time in game (weekends baby!!!) and although I felt sleepy sometimes, I could actually play and play and yeah... well not fall asleep. But then when I went down to watch TV with the cousins, BAM! I dozed off soundly on the couch. Lol. I swear if I have a PC when studying (even if it's only to type out what the lecturer says), I'm sure I'll be awake 99% of the time. XD

Faces

Faces are such a unique thing. And faces captured in a photo? Even more unique. Some people are born photogenic, some people work hard and know their angles which makes them able to take awesome photos, some people excel in certain types of portayal, and some.... are just photo shy.

For me, I try so hard to take a serious dark photo, but I can never get it. I tried squinting my eyes and looking pissed, but my face doesn't compliment it. What I'd give to look half as dark as Eliza Dushku (think Faith in Buffy) or ummm.... like Kate Beckinsale (Underworld Evolution). Mmmmm.... yummy. Heck there was this girl in my class last year who looked sooooooooooo cool and can really look dark. I mean her look.... sigh... I want! And her boyfriend's look matches hers too. Both of them are so yummy +_+ And yes I stare at them a lot, if we're in the same class.

So what works for me? Something totally opposite from a dark or serious look - the cute look. Like it or not I'd have to admit that 'acting' cute in photos gives me better photos than me trying to give a more serious or mature portrayal. Sigh.... maybe this is why people don't take me seriously and think they can step on me anytime they want to, or take advantage of me. Grrrrr..... one day I shall master the art of being dark! Just you wait and see!

Want proof?



It's obvious which looks better right?