Why does it affect me so?

I hate myself. I let tiny things affect me. I always say "No worries, I understand" but in fact I don't. I just want to be the nice girl not wanting people to feel bad about themselves. Taking the blame on myself (which is quite true because I'm the stupid one feeling this way) to not make the other party worry about what he/she did wrong. I seriously need to get out of it all. All the drama, all the jealousy, everything. I try to be nice, I hurt myself. I act like I don't care, people ask me so many questions as to what is wrong. I still get frustrated over the smallest thing. Sigh....














Maybe I should just 'disappear' for a few weeks and see how it goes.

Freaking Blizzard

So there I was with the World of Warcraft expansion bought but the CDs are far far away from me. But I have the key. And Blizzard wrote this on their website:

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I won’t have access to my CDs due to being away from home. Will I be able to upgrade the account I play on?

You will be able to upgrade the account; however, until you install from the CDs, you will not be able to play.

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So I assumed that ok I can upgrade but not be able to play the expansion but I could still play the normal WoW. Apparently I was wrong. So now I'm bored here not being able to play any characters. Shit man and I was so keen to level my hunter alt cos I was having so much fun on her. Sigh.... DAMMIT I'm frustrated argh!!!!

How do you make people happy?

I really wanna know. People around me seem to get upset with me after a while. And I tend to get frustrated with people a lot too. This is so bad =(

I thought coming back home would make my parents happy but I failed too. This morning my mum asked me, "Why do you come back? Only to play games? I don't see you spending time with us, only more interested in your game."

See what she does not know is that I am able to play games now that my Internet is more decent in KL. And I'm not really one to go up to her to talk and all... I mean it's her. >_< She ends up getting me frustrated or irritated. Like when she fetched me the other day when I came back, along the way back we talked and I found out that she changed the story she told me to make herself look bad and blame the fault on my dad. I don't know who to believe, my mum or my dad. Two different stories. You tell me. Well anyways this will be my last visit home till Chinese New Year anyways... and after CNY, no more visits home either. Stupid Saturday classes. But somehow, as mean/bad/evil as it may sound, I prefer it this way. I never liked travelling 2 hours in a bus to get home. Just... not my thing. It's too much of a hassle for me. I come home not because I want to, but because others want me to. I try my best to make people happy but I have a feeling I fail miserably and nowadays it's getting even worse for me. Sigh.... maybe things will change when I start working.

Speaking of working... the thought of working outside Malaysia has crossed my mind. What do you think?

Sad life

Look at the time of the post. It's a freaking 6.30am dammit. And here I am getting ready to go to class because the freaking class starts so early in the morning and the time taken to get to class during 'peak time' is sick cos of the traffic jam. Sigh.... And I didn't wanna wake up too because I had an unfinished dream, and I wanted to know the 'ending'. =( Speaking of which, I realize that one's 'will' has to be strong in order to get up in the morning. I mean earlier, if it didn't snap at me saying "Hey noob you gotta wake up NOW!!", I'd probably still be asleep and miss class (since all 4 alarms/reminders of mine already went off). So you see, if you don't have the thinking that "I got to wake up now because I have class/work/something to do", you'd probably oversleep. Well ok I have to pack my bags and... sigh... start making my way to my boring class which requires SOOOOO much reading and SOOOOO much memorization. Why do I feel that I'll fail at least 1 our of these 3 core papers? *cries* I need to start working and get some KA-CHING so I can buy a 30" Dell Widescreen LCD and laugh at some evil person =P

Html error?

I didn't know most of my readers were facing the "auto-play" from the audio I posted a few posts ago. Cos I did include the html codes which stops the auto-play... wonder why it didn't work =/ I guess it is freaky to suddenly load my blog and an audio plays >_< Gomen ne minna. I really didn't know this (or suspected anything) till Syaoran and Kory told me about it.

I.R.NOOB

New Layout

For a new year. :)

Was supposed to use this layout to mark my new life in KL but with the sucky connection and the busy life here I was delayed. =P

Props to my darling WinG for the layout. I promise I'll go to Cyber this year to visit! Zettai ni ikimasu!

A new year has begun

3rd day of the new year, I've already began classes, which totally sucks cos I don't want my holidays to end. :( Well anyways the first class I had was Advanced Corporate Reporting and the lecturer was really good. Unfortunately, she scared us and seeing how I was exempted from Part 1 & 2 of my ACCA, this paper would be even harder for me because those topics the lecturer has fully covered in Paper 2.5, she won't repeat for this paper. >_< So I think it's going to be quite the tough case for me and Sze Woon.

So anyways this sem's subjects suck too. I have Saturday classes which is a BOO! I'm thinking of how would I make it to GACC if I have a class? Cos I heard GACC is a 2 day event now. =/ Maybe if really have to I'll skip class! We'll see. Sigh... hope no exams during those days. And guess what? My results will be out on the 2nd day of Chinese New Year too. Talk about breaking the mood. I won't check them until I've done my visiting for the day. Don't want it to spoil my mood or my parents'.

And the Taiwan earthquake issue has still not been resolved. I can't take the lag any longer I need my Internet dammit!! :( Way to start the new year if you ask me. Not much good has come my way this year. I hope this means that in future days, they will improve :) Take care everyone and keep visiting! Imma try to post more and more whenever I'm free. You can say... I might have found my blog jive back :p

Happy New Year 2007!!!

May you guys have a great year with lots of fun, joy, luck, and everything positive. Stick to your resolutions if you made any! :D

Lase's New Year's Resolution:
- Drink 8 glasses of water a day
- Don't break more the rules/law more than 10 times
- Love myself everyday
- Workout to stay healthy
- Learn to control my temper and frustration better