A seriously long blog post

Alright, before you even start reading, this is a warning to tell you that this particular blog post will be very long as I'm finally writing all those stuff I wanted to blog about before and during the study week but was not able to do so because of assignments and I needed to study for my finals (yes, I did study for my finals). They will be divided into certain parts in bold subtitles but I'm sure this is going to be a pretty long post by the time I'm done. If the same thing happens again (like what happened to my dance post earlier), I will not retype it. But I'll make sure I Ctrl + C before submitting this post. =) Well then, let's get on with the show.

Cute guys
I'm like seeing cute guys everywhere. I seriously mean it. It's either my standards have dropped (into seeing how cute a guy is) or that cute guys just spawned out of no where like mushrooms after the rain. Well, at least I have things (um.... people) to look at once in a while nowadays. And if you know me, by cute I would mean those with yummy-licous looking hair to suit their cute face as well. *drools* Wonder how Masami's search for Cyber cute guys is going about? =Avoids Masami's jealousy glares= *evil laugh*

StreamyX
My line has officially been upgraded to a 1MB line instead of slow old 512kb line. Nyeahahaha.... and the upgrade was super fast this time. They promised to get all lines upgraded by Nov 1 (but now it's changed to by the end of this year) but my line was upgraded about 2 or 3 weeks before that. Woohoo I'd say. XD All the more stuffs to download. Slack part is that my HDD seems to be always full. T_T I can't burn as fast as I download. LOL.

Sick
I fell sick during the weekend in between Raya and Deepavali so it was a rather pathetic weekend for me. T_T I was planning to do so many things then but I HAD to fall sick and it lasted for the whole weekend. *sniff* Only thing I did was sleep, sleep and.... sleep. GAH!!!

Friends
I was to write about something regarding "hope friends don't forget me" but I have seriously no idea whatsoever now what I wanted to convey the time I wrote that. If I were to make a guess, it would be those faraway friends who I've not seen for so long. I do know they have their own set of friends there but I'm hoping when they come back here, they will still remember all those wonderful memories we shared and will always keep in touch. Glad to know that in about 2 to 3 years time (hopefully), most of my friends will be back from overseas studies. Well, by then we'll all be working also so perhaps we'll not meet each other so often but the chances of meeting is way better than them being so far, and me being here. End of this year many will return but my classes will start. Bleh. Only times we meet is during Chinese New Year. Hope 2005 will be the same. Gathering and all.

PC
Yay I got a new PC. XD Specs...well, don't really need to know that since it's not THAT much to shout about. But I'm just happy cos my PC is super fast, virus free (for now - touch wood), having graphics a hell lot better than my old one, and I got an 80GB HDD (which I thought was enough but I am regretting now....sigh..). Wanna give a huge shout-out for Jin (although he will not check my blog) to say THANK YOU so much for your help and seriously very very sorry for all the trouble I caused. Hehehe...you see, I was very picky with my PC so he got a little bit of a headache helping me get it. Heh heh... gomen nasai. m(_ _)m Anyhow, first day I got my PC, I did not touch it. Nooooo.... someone had to be a pain in the @$$ and hurriedly installed Deus Ex 2 to play. And it's my PC. Only after about a week, I managed to fully spend time with my PC. It sucks huh? I'm the one paying RM3000+ for it and I was not the one to touch it first. Sheesh.

Boyfriend
Why does everyone always think I got a boyfriend? It's weird if you ask me. I mean, I for one do not think I look like someone who has a boyfriend. Nor do I look like one who can easily get one. Oh, and I'm not one who you'll see a guy with obviously cos I seriously stink in this part of life. LOL. And here I have a friend who said "I know you got a boyfriend" and when I said no, he replied "But you got before, right?" I don't know I was supposed to feel flattered or to feel like a whore. +_+ Well, maybe not a whore.... a slutty bitch? Nah... ummm... playgirl! Ok we'll use this word. This is not the first time someone popped that question and it certainly was not the first time people did not believe me when I said I was still single. I mean.... do I look that bad or that desperate or that.... umm... I don't know. It does not really freak me out (although the post might sound as though I am freaking out) but I still find it weird. I for one cannot picture myself with any guy cos.... I don't think I am girlfriend quality just yet and I'm kinda kolot on certain parts (which guys might not like) and I'm also hoping to stay true to my principles of stuffs I can (or will) and stuffs I can't (or won't) do if I do get a boyfriend. Of course imagining stuffs like cuddling and manja-ing and all those romantic crap is a piece of cake for me. But I have no idea what will happen if it really does happen. I guess I'll leave it as that and let time decide and work from then. Heh...take things as they come. Planning too much is sometimes not good also. (Lase to self: You know, you keep saying that but you obviously think and plan too much about future events in your damn head every single time)

Shirtless guy
Ok....the title may be a little wrong. It's supposed to be shirtless uncle. Eek. Yes, on my way back from a friend's place, I was driving alone this road and there was a shirtless man in front of me. His back was facing me but I can see that he was tanned and quite nicely built. Well, I don't mean six pax or anything but yeah....quite well built. And added bonus, he was wearing black pants. Yummy. It was all cool and I did not drool or anything but once I passed him and saw his face.... +_+ Somehow at that very moment I do not want to see any shirtless person anymore. LOL. Now I do though...in my dreams. Shirtless guys with black pants and some bandages or chains around...yummy. Well, back to the point. I'm guessing he's a contruction worker since he's pretty tanned and well built but..... it was seriously not bad from neck down...but above that was a quite elderly man. Eeks to the max. LOL. He had a good body for someone who looked his age though. ^^ I guessed he was at least 35, maybe 40. Hahahaha....

Worrying
Are people built to worry for others? I thought the "jaga tepi kain orang" is not a good thing, right? I mean if you have your own troubles to worry about, please worry about yours first. I can handle the worrying for my own troubles. Though it's not always that I worry about something. If you know me, you will know I'm a super relaxed person and a happy-go-lucky one as well. It's seriously funny I think. The people who are worrying are the people who are not affected by whatever it is I'm doing. The only person I can think of being affected is myself but it's a seriously major thing which I, till now, can't understand how is it possible for someone to worry about something which they are not even a part of? I mean if my actions will affect you, you got the right to be (and should be) worried about it. This is just something I normally do, something I'm comfortable in doing, something I hardly have any problems doing..... and these people are worrying about this. Seriously weird. I got no other words to express it. It's just weird. And by them getting all worried, I started getting a little worried about it but of course I brush that off in a matter of seconds since I know it's all cool. Still, the weirdness stays. So, people.... if there is nothing for me to be worried about, please don't force yourself to be worried or think so much about my worries when you have your own worries to look into.

Working
Oh man I can't wait to start working. I seriously am dead bored and sick of studying right now that I just feel like quitting and getting a job. But I keep telling myself it's only 1 year....1 more year and you'll be working your whole life. People might call me weird or say that I'll regret it because working life is tough. But I am one who prefers practical stuffs so working would not be much of a deal to me as compared to studying. Working also means me shifting into that new life and it's a huge experience I would want to go through. Meeting new people, earning your own money from your own sweat and blood (well, not literally since I'm most likely sitting in an air-conditioned room and won't bleed), starting anew, starting fresh. It's just like rain. All the bad things are just washed away and you begin from scratch. Can't wait!!

Too lazy
I'm seriously too lazy nowadays. I'm lazy to do anything and I can't motivate myself enough to do them. I'm even lazy to eat. I've skipped so many days of lunch just cos I was too lazy to get to my food and eat. I'm lazy to study (for sure). I'm lazy to do anything actually. Even the (most of the time) fiesty me became lazy to fight back and stand for my opinions and thought nowadays. What I'll do is just agree, or nod, then leave the "fight". Why? Lazy, wasting my time, wasting my energy. I think the amount of times I actually stood up to my views nowadays would be less than half the number of times I did before. I see no point in arguing my views anymore because it's either I'm gonna win with people feeling that I'm a jerk with a stubborn attitude, or that I'm gonna get stressed out cos I'm being made to feel stupid. Seriously, 21 years with my brother implying I'm stupid all the time does not help me cope when someone makes me feel stupid. I will still dislike it and will always do. It's just who I am. Call me stupid in the face I'm pretty ok with it most of the time (I tend to laugh it off as a joke as well cos I do agree with some stupid things I did). But implying I'm stupid with facts which are sometimes not even true (or that I think aren't true) is something I cannot tolerate no matter how hard I try. And you bet your ass that I do not forget any of those remarks made cos it pissed me off and I will remember it for the rest of my life. I will get blasted a lot for this post (this particular sub-title) cos I do make people feel stupid sometimes but (whether you believe it or not) I usually know when I did something or said something to make someone feel stupid and hurt (cos I hated how it feels) and I'll usually try to say things to make up for it. Or at least make it sound less hurtful. Something. It doesn't always work, I know. But for me, in my heart, I tried to rectify my wrongdoings, though I do sometimes fail. Oops... I kinda went out of topic there didn't I? :p

Read & Listen
People just do not read something properly or do not read something till the end before they start giving their own opinions. I mean.... Hello???? Can you like READ??? I it THAT hard to read everything properly before doing anything or giving any replies? Same goes for listening. I do admit I sometimes cut people off when they're talking or that I make assumptions cos I tend to semi-listen sometimes. But I usually read everything properly before replying anything. And if I replied without reading, I will so state that I did not read the whole thing, or I did not read anything, etc. Don't believe me? Check the forums. I am human though. I do make mistakes in misreading sometimes but at least 90% of the times I read, it will be what is written. And also, those people who do not know the meaning of certain words, do refrain yourself from actually using them. It not only makes you look stupid, it gives the damn bloody wrong meaning when you say it to someone. I experienced this before and it seriously pissed me off and I forgot what I learnt in Business Communication (where it states when you are mad or too happy, you should not talk or do things because you will regret it) so I did some stupid things and the results were kinda disappointing as well. Serves me right since I did it. And the worst part was, I became the victim and I took the blame all because I said some things out which I should not have. And all because some people who don't understand the meaning of a certain word used it on me and I got so mad I spread my views to everyone and they looked at me in fault. Sigh.... life... just take it. And throw it into the sea. Everything is a new experience. But I was happy I did it though. At least now people know what I really mean and what I really feel during those kinda times.

Changing
Well, this is a word I kinda liked on the day I thought about it. I forgot exactly when but the phrase that was on my mind was "Don't change". This is a common phrase among friends who won't be seeing each other for a period of time. Something like after secondary, they tell you not to change. Stay the same. Yadda, yadda, crap. Well, I do not believe it one bit. What they actually mean is (by saying they, I don't mean everyone who says these words, I mean those hypocrites who say it for the sake of saying it), don't change the good stuffs you have. Change the bad stuffs you have and make it better so the next time I see you, I would not hate you that much. Well, it's not exactly how I wanted to say but the rough idea is there. Don't change means keep the good, throw the bad. And this my dear friends does actually mean a change. I said this once to a friend and I really did mean it - "I accept the good and bad in you when I accepted you as a friend. I never wanted you to change who you are" Those were the words I said to a friend cos he kinda misunderstood when I asked him to change "something". I meant his handphone but he thought it was his attitude. LOL. Anyways, good and bad stuff happened but I still do accept his good and bad. We're human. We're not flawless. I do admit though that I was able to tolerate many types of flaws and bad stuff of others but influence got the best of me and I was able to tolerate only a small portion during those times. Now? I'm trying to regain my level of tolerance for another person's flaws, as I would wish for him or her to accept my flaws as I am and not trying to imply that I should change, even if it is for the better of my own self. Changing is not easy and to gain something, you'll need to sacrifice something in return. That is the law of equivalent trade. I did change from being a person who is damn good at merajuk-ing to someone who does not really merajuk anymore (Lee Na should be very clear on this part :p ) but in exchange, I became someone who easily gets irritated. It was a good thing I stopped merajuk-ing, but it would be better if I were not that easily irritated either. Right now, all I can think of is being true to myself and living the life I want. Who I want to be. Not being who others want me to be. Hope I got the strength to be true to my words...

Well, that's all folks. (Lase to self : That's all my ass. You spent 30 minutes in front of the PC typing and typing and forgot all about Lineage and about anything else and your hand is getting tired and your back is also strained and your neck is painful and your eyes are.... well, your eyes are normal since you always stare at the monitor) It feels good to let everything out on your blog. Makes me feel rather.... free. ^_^ By the way, I'm almost completed with the painting of my headpiece and I'm pretty happy about it. Yay!

Lost post

Finally retyped the whole of the "Dancing" post. T_T But sad to say, it was not as good as when I typed yesterday. Basically the points are all there but there is a little lack in the flair if compared to yesterday. =( Very sad. Sigh....when I Ctrl + C, it turns out ok. When I suddenly forgot about copying it.... actually I remembered but did not want to copy it (due to some reasons), it gets lost. Damn freaking irritating. Let's hope this one stays as well, ne?

OMG!!!!

I posted a whole damn bloody long post and I can't seem to see it. +_+ It better appear tomorrow since Blogger is sucky today. It was like.... soooooo long. My long post in a few months and.... if it really does not come out, I'll kill myself. ARGH!!!!! Why of all times, I forgot to Ctrl + C the whole post this time. ARGH!!!!!

Dance

Well, this is kinda a weird thing that I might be a little too perasan but I really feel like I'm being watched by a spyfly somewhere and it records everything I do and someone somewhere is watching me. +_+ I know it sounds so crazy but until today, it was all just a matter of "coincidence" for me. Well, this thing I'm talking about did not happen once, twice? Nope. Today marked the third day it happened and I'm kinda feeling weird with all this. I mea I've thought about it before but I scratched that off my head cos I was being ridiculous. But what happened today was a little.... seriously weird. Well, I won't keep you in suspense so I'll (kinda) get to the point now.

Well it all began one fine day when a few friends of mine were asked to do a performance for the English Club Night. It was back in Form 3 then and you know how enthusiastic people can be. Well, each form is to give one performance for the night. And my friends decided we do a dance. I was asked to join so I did (since I did love dancing). Well, my passion for dancing increased even more on the first day of reheasal. It was something like this. We had our first meeting to decide what songs we're going to dance to and how many people are going to be there. Well, it was either Macarena or Ole Ole (The Ricky Martin football song where you shake your butt and wave your hands) as it is the easiest to learn and perform. So they played the Macarena song and we were discussing what comes first, what comes next, etc. And.... then.... I was also telling them this is first, then this, then that, as far as I can remember. Then they went O.O and "Woaaahh...." That was when they found out I can dance. Hahaha...yes my dear readers, this fat blob can actually dance. I would so be lying if I said I was not happy. With those puji-ing, I did kembang a little. XD So well, I somehow became in charge of the whole performance and seeing that I did practice certain dance steps (and don't mind creating steps) for other songs besides Ole Ole and Macarena, we scratched Ole Ole off, put in Let's Twist, Spice Up Your Life and Stop. Results? I was the best performance of the night. Woah yeah....

Anyways, coming back to the main point... that was the start of my passion for dancing. Everyday I would dance to anything played on radio and create dance moves as I do. My dancing was more towards pop back then since there are a lot of pop princesses and boybands around. Anyhow, one day I was browsing through the TV and guess what I saw? Some of my dance steps in it. I was shocked but I was also happy at the same time. Such a coincidence. ^^

Then came the time when I started dancing to hiphop themes, but no matter to what songs. I danced hiphop with pop songs, with any songs for that matter... it had some hiphop in it. A few months later, I saw those moves in an Mtv over on Ntv7. Wow... another coincidence.

Now...after such a long time not creating much dance moves and not dancing much either, I thought I became rusty in dancing because no matter what songs I played, my dance theme would be the same. It's the same weird theme which I got no name for it either. It's not pop. It's not hiphop. It's not anything. It's just weird. Oh well, as long as I'm happy, I continued dancing. And dancing I did. Created new dance moves and I'm happy with how much I'm working out as well. The past few weeks have been really fun for me as I have no idea where I suddenly got the ethusiasm to dance and dance and just dance. And then.... today.... I just finished downloading Tamaki Nami's Reason Mtv and while watching it.... you guessed it. I went "hey, I did that" or "didn't I just do that?" and "I can do that....it's somewhat similar that what I did". Those kinda things....hope you get the picture. It wasn't that suitable (her dance) to the song. She should have danced on a little faster pace, following the song. Well anyhow, once or twice, coincidence...maybe. Third time? Woah.... super freaky. Well, I'm weird and very imaginative so it's no doubt these sort of things will come to mind. I'm happy though since there the theme I thought was weird is now not. XD

Anyhows, I managed to create even more dance steps but somewhat related to the weird theme but it was not on Tamaki Nami's Mtv so for now, it's mine..... if I do see another Mtv with this move, I'll probably go crazy again. Hahahaha.... this is so fun and it is somewhat an honour for me to be seeing those dance moves I did on the screen. Well, at least I can know whether it looks good or not when performing in a synchronized group. ^^

On a side note, this ulcer of mine is killing me. I had one last week and just as it disappeared, this new one pops up and it's in the inside of my lower lip, making it very painful whenever I talk or move my mouth. T_T Hope it will go away fast. Somehow ulcers just reminds me of Lee Na. XD

Lastly, I just spent USD63.95 on a wig, conditioner, wig cap and a comb. 0_0 Well, I hope I don't regret when the wig comes. It is from one of the most reputable wig shops in US anyways. ^^ Hope I get it soon. Now to figure when to cosplay as that character.....

*Ctrl + C*

ROAR!!!

I'm so angry at certain people (well, not that angry but frustrated and disappointed) because they would just ignore my mail and I'm left here wondering what should I do. If I go on myself without their consent, they would say I acted alone without asking and if any mistakes, they blame me. But I did asked twice but there was totally no reply. ARGH!!!!! It's frustrating when you want to do you job but no one confirms what you are to do.... and when they finally do, they expect you to do it fast. Fast /= good work. I'm gonna ask one last time, and this time make it sound more urgent and a little harsh maybe.... if that don't get their attention, I'm just gonna do it by myself. Dare they shoot me later. I'll screw them upside down left and right.

Quizzes for the bored soul - ME

You Are From the Moon

You can vibe with the steady rhythms of the Moon. You're in touch with your emotions and intuition. You possess a great, unmatched imagination - and an infinite memory. Ultra-sensitive, you feel at home anywhere (or with anyone). A total healer, you light the way in the dark for many.

What Planet Are You From?

Hmmm.... is this why I love Sailormoon? XD On a more serious note... Finally, I foud a quiz which I think really is almost 100% in describing me. At least I kinda think so. ^^

And a little something down to "earth"

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary. If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What kind of blogger are you?

For fun

This is something I got in a forwarded mail and thought I'd just share it if anyone's interested

Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character.
Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character you most resemble?
A group of investigators got together and analyzed the personalities of well know and modern cartoon characters.
The information that was gathered was made into this test:
Answer all the questions with what describes you best, then add up all your points at the end and look for your results.
Then forward this to all your friends and change the subject of this message to what character you are.

1) Which one of the following describes a perfect date?

a) Candlelight dinner
b) Fun/Theme Park
c) Painting in the park
d) Rock concert
e) Going to the movies

2) What is your favorite type of music?

a) Rock and Roll
b) Alternative
c) Soft Rock
d) Country
e) Pop

3) What type of movies do you prefer?

a) Comedy
b) Horror
c) Musical
d) Romance
e) Documentary

4) Which one of these occupations would you choose, if you only could choose one?

a) Waiter
b) Professional Sports Player
c) Teacher
d) Police
e) Cashier

5) What do you do with your spare time?

a) Exercise
b) Read
c) Watch television
d) Listen to music
e) Sleep

6) Which one of the following colors do you like best?

a) Yellow
b) White
c) Sky Blue
d) Dark Blue
e) Red

7) What do you prefer to eat right now?

a) Snow
b) Pizza
c) Sushi
d) Pasta
e) Salad

8) What is your favorite Holiday?

a) Halloween
b) Christmas
c) New Year
d) Valentines Day
e) Thanksgiving

9) If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris
b) Spain
c) Las Vegas
d) Hawaii
e) Hollywood

10) With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a) Someone Smart
b) Someone attractive
c) Someone who likes to Party
d) Someone who always has fun
e) Someone very sentimental

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for!

1.) a-4 b-2 c-5 d-1 e-3
2.) a-2 b-1 c-4 d-5 e-3
3.) a-2 b-1 c-3 d-4 e-5
4.) a-4 b-5 c-3 d-2 e-1
5.) a-5 b-4 c-2 d-1 e-3
6.) a-1 b-5 c-3 d-2 e-4
7.) a-3 b-2 c-1 d-4 e-5
8.) a-1 b-3 c-2 d-4 e-5
9.) a-4 b-5 c-1 d-4 e-3
10.) a-5 b-2 c-1 d-3 e-4


(10-16 points) You are Garfield: You are very comfortable, and easy going and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean you always have to do what is right. Try to remember your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-21 points) You are Snoopy: You are have fun and you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you never are out of style.You are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else.You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home. Being married and having children are important to you but only after you have had your share of fun times.

(22-28 points) You are Arnold: You have lots of friends and you are also popular always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer, if you are you will have many conflicts with life.

(29-34 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants: You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend anyone could ever want to have and never want to loose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people & then you will be stress free.

(35-42 points) You are Charlie Brown: you are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(43-50 points) You are Dexter: You are smart and definitely a thinker. Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. Maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes.

I am Sponge Bob Square Pants. Not entirely true though. *nods head*

Wonderful Memories

Well, I'm lazy to study (no mood in the evenings lah) now and I got nothing much to surf so I got bored and ended up reading my first few posts of my blog. Well, those were the days. I'm kinda jealous of the life I had back then. It seems to be so happy and jumpy and genki. And my posts back then were super long as well. Wonder how I managed to just type and type and type so much. One thing I'm very grateful about my blog, I get to keep these memories and cherish them. And I can view them whenever I want to also. :) Just hope that blogger does not crash or something. I'll surely cry if it does. Better make a back-up copy of all my posts soon. ^^

Well, I guess I'm gonna go watch one or two episodes of some anime before I shove my nose into my Company Secretarial Practice textbook. Oh, and by the way.... I might seriously put myself into a productive 'gear' come holidays. Gonna learn some stuffs on my own, gonna do some stuffs, gonna waste some money buying stuffs, gonna try and earn some money, gonna go to KL a couple of times in December for coplay events, etc. It's kinda packed so I hope I have enough time to do everything I'm supposed to do.

To everyone's who's gonna sit for exams, All The Best and Good Luck.

Japanese post

For those of you who view my blog as very cacated due to one post full of symbols, it's cos I typed it in Japanese and most browser defaults don't support it. It's easy to view it (if you're ever interested to read some gibbrish you might not understand - my grammar is definitely wrong in there as well). Just click the view button at the top of your browser (this is for IE, for other browsers, tough luck, figure it out yourself XD ) and under encoding, choose UTF-8 and you can view the Japanese characters already.

Thanks to .Edo for informing me that. Heck, I could not even see it before. ^^

OMG!!!

It's like 8am now and I'm wide awake. Woke up this morning at...guess what time? 7.15am!!! Crazy I tell you. And I studied till 4am this morning too. Of course I don't drift off to sleep straight away. Tossing and turning, I think I ended up in bed somewhere between 5.30am - 6.00am. That would mean I did not even get 2 hours of sleep. Woah.... super crazy I tell you. Must be my sudden semangat to study so hard. Lol. Anyways, this is a once in a really pretty blue moon thingie and will not happen anytime soon, that I'm very sure of. Gonna start my day early. Perhaps go make some french toasts and then off to study again. Semangat I tell you. Crazy me. XD

Just a song for the broken heart

There you stand in the garden
The garden that you call home
The home you have is so magical
But the magic will disappear

Oh....Invincible flower, that you are
Stay strong forever, never afar
You are just different
You are just you
Looking at tomorrow....you just can't seem to care

A flower that blooms all over again
Will be stronger than any stone
No matter rain, wind or shine
It feels no pain, it sheds no tear

Oh....Invincible flower, that you are
Stay strong forever, never afar
You are just different
You are just you
Looking at tomorrow....you just can't seem to care

The thorns that surround you keeps you alive
The leaves that you hold not wither or dry

Never let 'nyone tell you what's wrong or what's right cos you do what you do and should not be confused
Just be as you are and show your shine and the plants around will be so f***ed up they stay that way

Oh....Invincible flower, that you are
Stay strong forever, never afar
You are just different
You are just you
Looking at tomorrow....you just can't seem to care

Look forth to tomorrow....you know you'll be there

にほんごのポスト

*わらう*
どうしてにほんごのポストおかきましたか。
こたえはひとつ : ひみつ
まさみちゃん、わるいのポスト はごめんね。にほんごはまだよんかいです。

じゃ、 はじまるぞう。
ともだち。。。なんですか、そのことば。いいともだち。。。 だれか、いいともだちになりましたか。ともだちいましたなら、げんきですよって。 ほんとうですか。どうしてともだちはいる、でもわたしかなしくてさびしいよ。わたしのこといろいろぜったいにあなたたちにはなしましたか。 おかしいね。 たすけてのとき、 とてもやさしいともだちになりました。 べんきょうのとき、 ライバルになりました。 どうしてまいあさまいあさほんとうのともだちになりませんか。 きょうすてきのともだちです。 あしたライバル です。あさってやさしいのです。へんだね。。。にんげん。

わるいひとですか。 いいひとですか。 どう。 あなたはなにものだ。こたえて。そのかおはほんものですか。うそですか。わかりません。ただ、あなたのことはすきでわありません。はやくおきなさい。わたしのともだち、みんなおかえして。ゆるさない。さ、いっしょうにたたかうよ。 わたしはこわくない、 あなたのこと。 こい。

* わらう *
とてもへんのポスト ね。すごくむずかしいですよ。ああ、 ドンマイドンマイ。わたしのブロッグですからね。

でも、 こたえわひとつ。あのひとのかおはみてくないよ。 ぜったいに。

Boyfriend + Whines

Nah, did not find a new one if that's what you're thinking. Lol. I was just surfing the net yesterday and it suddenly came to my mind. I want an artistic boyfriend. Lol. I know, I'm weird. What more can I add to my 'list' of 'stuffs-my-boyfriend-must-have-or must-be". I'm just plain sicko me when it comes down to Lase. Hehehe.... Though I doubt I will be as such in real life. Hmmm... who knows? If one does come by..... Well, that's something else to think about I guess. XD

I've been doing a little thinking last night (well, actually...this morning... just before dozing off) and I am quite disappointed at myself on the "skills" aspect. I seriously do not have any talent or skills and that kinda sucks when I think about it. I mean I can swim but that's about it. I can play tennis but that's that. I can't draw for nuts. I hardly know how to do computer design stuffs. Basically, have no talent.... or it's just that I've not found out. T_T These thoughts might have been triggered by my Internet surfing earlier that day since I was uberly jealous of a lot of people and their skills. *sniff* Then of course my mind drifted to the "what if..." state where stuffs like "What if I were the best ____ in the world?", "What if I were the most ____ person in the world?", etc. And it made me feel better at one end, but worse at the other end. Lol. Of course it does not bug me that much (save last night) but it is great when I think about it. Having a skill or talent where you can maybe earn money with it is also superb I think. For now, my so-called "tallent" is perhaps being able to type quite fast without even looking at the keyboard. But hey, anyone can do that also. Sigh..... Perhaps I should go for an adventure on my own one day to discover my hidden (if there is one) talent. =)

Under The Weather

Sigh.... of all times to fall sick, it has to be when I finally have no classes to attend. What is this, man. This kinda things should happen when I got 6 hours of class...then I got a nice excuse to sleep at home. XD Sadly, my sickness caused me my second visit to MITC for some expo of some sort. It's supposed to be some home stuffs but most of the stuffs I see there are trinklets. T_T If only my parents wanted to stay longer, I would have been able to take my time to admire each and every thing there and perhaps buy some earrings and necklaces and bracelets and some DIY handphone keychains. Hehehe... thought of getting one for Thye Shin so he can give it to his darling but too bad, I fell sick and could not go there again to buy them. T_T Gomen nasai, Thye Shin.

As usual, holidays means savings for me. Hehehe...cos I hardly go to campus, I hardly go out, and I eat at home almost everyday....well, that is...if I do eat my lunch. Hahaha....been lazy to even eat nowadays. What more, I got this stupidly big ulcer in my mouth now (though cannot challenge Lee Na's 5 cent coin size ulcer...ouch) and everytime I drink, eat or even brush my teeth, I'll feel pain. =( What more if those stuffs I take are spicy. *cries* Hope I get well by tomorrow and my ulcer gone as well so I can pay 100% concentration on my last assignment. Then off to study for finals. ARGH!!!! Sien....

*Stretches arms and massages stiff shoulders*

Feels good to know one assignment is down. And only one more to go. One more to go.... oh man. The thought of that just sucks. Well, was planning to hand in my assignment (Professional Ethics assignment) at about lunch time or just after lunch time but I got a surprise visit from Lee Na, Angeline, Wei Kuei and Pao Ying. Was actually supposed to join them for lunch but I was so afraid that I would not be able to finish my assignment in time that I told them I'm having lunch with my parents instead. It was a short lunch no doubt (since we're all pretty fast eaters) and I continued doing the assignment. Just about 2pm, I got that surprise visit. It was good and bad at the same time. Good that I finally get to meet up with them, bad that I was worried that I would not be able to finish editing the assignment in time. Anyhow, it all turned out well and I submitted the assignment 15 minutes before the due time. Lol.

Somehow, when they were with me, although I know at the back of my mind I needed to do the assignment else I'll be in deep trouble, I just feel all comfortable and relaxed. It's like the thought of assignment just disappeared. Heh, unfortunately the thought was gone for like a few minutes only as they will be my 2nd mother and nagged me about doing the assignment. Hehehe.... of course I did not do it. We ended up learing some "stomp-the-cockroach" dance, taught by Wei Kuei. Well, it was actually a nice dance but.... the concept is funny. Hehehe... Pao Ying and I gave it a try of course (Wei Kuei even brought along the CD +_+) and it was super hilarious. Hehehe.... we end up doing things wrong of course. We gave up and danced cha-cha instead. XD Myself with Angeline, Wei Kuei with Pao Ying. Hehehe... Lee Na was almost in tears watching us. Hmm....were we THAT good? XD

Alls well that ends well....they left about 3.45pm and I got my butt down again to complete the work. Oh, by the way... Lee Na's been complaining about me not updating my blog very often so I'll try to update as fast as I can. I got all the topics ready (about 10 of them) but have not gotten the time to sit down and type. Hehehe....plain ol' lazy me.

WoW - The 2nd chapter

WoW SUCKS. That is all I got to say. It sucks. Very disappointing for me when playing those 10 minutes but I was never really enthusiastic about it either. Hope this does not let down my brother who waited 2 years for it. I'm sticking to Lineage, thank you.

WoW

Heads up people. World of Warcraft open beta is released yesterday so head to worldofwarcraft.com or fileplanet.com to download the client. Blizzard is using Bittorent again for the download of the client. =) Alternatively, you can head to suprnova.org and get the BT torrent from there as well. Be warned though.... you'll need 2.5GB free space if you intend to download this. Man that's huge. +_+ From yesterday till today, I've only completed 20% of download. T_T This is sad man. Hopefully by tomorrow I can start playing. Uwahh.... can't wait.

Heh...does not mean I'm giving up Lineage II.

Cosplay update: For those who are interested to cosplay any Gothic character, there will be a Goth group during CF 1st day so I'm most probably going to cosplay as a Goth character on that day. 2nd day.... we'll just have to see about it. Currently in the process of begging my brother to sponsor me a couple of wig and wig accessories. ^^