Good Deed

Well, I did my good deed for the day. ^^ And believe it or not, it does make one feel much better, much calmer, much at peace, much loved after doing a good deed. It does not matter who is on the receiving end, it does not matter whether your actions are repaid, the satisfaction that you did something good for another person is reward itself. Even a simple favour can make a huge difference. Even that small "thank you" sms was enough to make me feel appreciated and much at ease.

This just serves as a reminder for me to do more good deeds. I won't be perasan to go and blog about what good things I did. =P

Personal reminder: print - mailbox - answer and slip

Quizzie

Well, some sort of a quiz lah.... got it off Masami's blog.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Very High
Schizoid Disorder:	High
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	Low
Dependent Disorder:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

Quick update

Quick update from my previous post~! So yeah, if you've not read my previous post, please do so first before reading this.

Lii just dropped by and passed the photos to me and yeah...someone actually paid for them (that's like RM30 >_< ) so I'm very grateful to the person who paid for them (thank you thank you so very much) but I'm also feeling very embarassed (pai sei) right now cos I don't know who did that and I want to thank him/her properly... and... pai sei except such a thing woh. RM30 not cheap know. >_< Nyaaaa.... me ish happy but also malu at the same time.

As for the photos.... yeah, they were really professional done and edited and thank god I don't look THAT fat in there. *phew* Slack part was I did not know they were going to include my signature on the photo (some sort like autograph) so I did not sign properly when I filled the form (there was some form they asked us to fill, and I don't want people forging my signature anyways, right?) and it kinda looked ugly... my signature that is. ^_^ Ish still very happy but curious who did that.

Could it be someone who accidentally placed a wrong order? Or a committee who is my friend who just wants to support the photographers so he/she paid instead? Or an ehem... admirer? Or someone who wanted my photo so thought he/she could get it but I was contacted instead? >:) *oh-stop-being-so-perasan* Dunno lah but if you are here reading my blog, please do tell me it's you, ok? Cos I want to thank you in person and if really you were buying it for your own keeping... err... see lah how. :p

Sick to da max

Monday, I had a feeling a sore throat was coming since that night my throat was a little "off"... I could just tell.

+_+ That was how I was feeling then. My prediction was right. My throat hurt and there was this little irritation as well. To top it off, I also had running nose. I thought after I'm done with those dreadful assignments, I would be able to enjoy a little of my life. Guess I was wrong. The day to submit the assignments was Tuesday. Got everything done by 12pm and submitted them on their designated times. Went to attend the booth for the Cyber trip till 4pm, headed home to freshen myself, and headed back to campus for a presentation at 5pm. After presentation was class and after class was the rehearsal for the cyber performance. Got back home about 12 and I though FINALLY I'll be able to switch on my PC for other purposes, not doing assignments like what I did for the past week. So on it was.... and on it stayed till 1 am when I woke up (yes, woke up) from my sleeping-while-sitting-in-front-of-my-monitor (and would you believe it? with my right hand on the mouse as well). Guess I was too tired. Off I was to bed.

And then came Wednesday, yesterday. My sore throat got worst and I woke up sounding like a man. I still had running nose but I manage to catch a slight fever and some coughes along the way. >_< I went to campus late cos overslept so I reached there about 11.00am, set up the booth and waited for class to start. Class was at 2 so I lepaked the whole time there feeling sick. Went back at 12, came back to campus for yet another rehearsal, and went back....this time managed to watch a couple of anime episodes. XD

Then came today. Myteriously I got an SMS from SIGMA PRESTIGE (some professional photographers) asking me to be their model (yeah right).... asking me to come and collect my photos of Prom Nite at their booth at CLC from 3.30pm to 5.30pm. Wait.... what photos? You mean those which you got to pay RM15 for a copy?? O.o Since when did I order it? x_x And then I recalled Della telling me that she saw 2 of my photos being ordered. ARGH~!!!! I should have checked and told them it was a mistake back then. Unless someone actually ordered and paid for me >:) (admirer ka? :p ) Anyhows, due to my unhealthy state, I wanted to go back so I called my beloved Lii to help me get it. *glomps* Sorry trouble you nyo~! Me shall belanja you one day, k? I did tell her to ask whether I needed to pay or not... cos if I did, I ain't paying. Call me a cheapskate but OMG RM15 is freaking expensive and I'm kinda broke right now... and I don't think their professionalism would be THAT much of a difference compared to the one Lii took for me when I was standing at the stairs. (photo not included :p) So now I'm kinda like waiting for her call, and preparing for screening AND my last rehearsal (hopefully) tonight.

All in all.... I skipped most of my lunches during those hectic weeks and did more workout than I normally did (thanks to the rehearsals) but sadly, it's either nothing changed or my weighing scale is broken. *wails* If that is the case I'm better off just pigging out everyday and STILL be the same, right? Sigh.... Reconsidering US Pizza's buffet lunch..... ;p

3rd post tonight..... kind of

Another post. Just to say that I've added back my imood (I forgot all about it) and I've edited my links so all those I remembered are there. Umm... sorry if I forgot any. >_< Wonder if I can add Grasshopper Dream since it's public now... :p Oh, and Ross.... dun change your url some more ah. Always change I kill you. =P

Oh-My-God~!!!!

I hate assignments so much that I love tests/quizzes/exams more now. As you can see the time stated.... it's like 3AM and I've yet to sleep. Why? No, not because I'm posting here. It's because of my damn assignments which are due on Tuesday (yeah, sadly I have 2 assignments due on the same day). Assignments are fine if they are like essays cos I can type fast while thinking at the same time and is well known for crapping a lot of crap in it. Did the lecturer set the assignments in this format? Nooo.... they have got to be damn fricking itchy and go set a 50 pages assignment where you have to find ACTUAL FACTS ranging from 3-5 years of not one, not two but like a gazzilion requirements. And it that's not enough to kill us, we have to analyse a damn company's portflio and see whether we should buy the shares now or sell or hold. And the worst part is... 50 pages (minimum) assignment for a mere 15% (some say it might change to 10%). ARGH~!!!!! She's a saddist I tell you. A saddist who enjoys seeing her students suffer. Enough time here.... back to work work work. *dies*

PS: Writing this as a time off cos I'm @_@ with the assignments already.... +_+

**edited**
If you ever wonder how I got the blogspot address I mentioned in my previous post, one word: ASSignment.

Uses of blogspot....

Well, I've seen people use blogspot for group discussions, for feedback regarding a certain event, for poetry writing, as online journals (the most popular reason), as a picture hosting place, etc. but this is the first time I'm seeing a blogspot account being used for something sooo.... educational. Don't believe me? Click here.

Find it rather cool. XD

Can't I be different?

Can't Legolase and the person physically present in front of the monitor pressing keys on the keyboard be different? Must they be the same person? The Internet serves as a powerful tool where people can express who they are, who they want to be, who they inspire to be or who they think they are to become. The huge question is, must offline and online personality be 100% one and the same? Can't one be more open when in the virtual world and more closed in reality (and vice versa)? I wonder how someone like Syaoran can exist in the many forms he's in and yet receive that amount of respect and have so many close friends. On which part did I go wrong? I wonder? Can't I live in some sort of a different world just like .hack//SIGN? Subaru was a handicapped but yet she had such power in the game itself. Can't I release all my feelings, thoughts and emotions in a webspace, where the number of people who know me are greatly reduced? Where I can scream but it still remains silent? Where my facial expression now and a minute later might change but still, no one knows? Where I pour out anything I feel comfortable and watches as it drifts away into cyberspace? Can't I be different.....?

PS: Gomen ne Syaoran-kun use you as example. >_<

Traxx?

By a discreet request by Traxx, I am to write a blog post about him. And though he mentioned "again"..... ummm.... again desu ka? +_+ Nyaaaa.... me ish blur on wat dis guy wan me to post about. And he also spam my Lego-Taggie saying "spare me". Demo... what do I spare him of woh... Me ish so blur. It's not like he killed my baby or something (by baby I meant something I sayang dearly cos I am still a virgin so yes, I have never been pregnant before). So I'm seriously blur blur blur to da max until my eyes wanna go ngong ngong already like dis @_@ cos I dunno what I am supposed to type. Eto.... Actually I also dunno Traxx still visit my blog ^_^;; *huge sweatdrop* cos ages since he spammed on my Lego-Taggie and his blog ish also dead. Unyahhhh..... wat to post some more. Wat to type summore? Dunno dee woh. So ish this enough ka? Eto.... if not enough later I try think of more lah hoh. +_+ Brain not functioning today coz last nite squeeze all da juice out when doing assignment nyo~!

Quizzie results...

Got a quiz from http://www.mindmedia.com/brainworks/profiler and here's my results.

You are Blue Koala, who is extremely honest person, and will say things that come up in your mind straightly. You are also active and very cheerful. You also possess feminine attraction and have distinguished atmosphere.You are very popular, and tend to be with lots of people. You value your friends too. But unlike your outlook, you don't like to loose and are a strong-minded person.You possess strong will-power, and are independent enough to carry things out without getting the help of the others. You have great creativity sense and are much talented in this.You act simply, but you possess complicated inner emotions. You may be thought little bit eccentric. You like to lead varied life, and try to change the atmosphere yourself too.You can make quick decisions, and possess courage. You are well liked by both men and women. You have great sense of instinct and can get right at the point of things. You can affect people as well.You are very strict on money. You will not go buying things on impulse.Someone you love and your love life is what is most important to you in your life. You possess great natural skill to manipulate men. You should not rush into marriage after a passionate love.

NOOOOOOOO~!!!!!

ARGH~!!!!!! I did the stupidest thing and I'm so sad right now. You see, it's about my wig. Continuing from where I left yesterday, I spent another 2 1/2 hours this morning combing the wig so it looks all proper. Then..... the moment of truth came. I am to cut the wig (>_< yes it sounds terrifing) and style it for my cosplay. And that I did. Miraculously, it turned out better than I expected so I was supr happy. Unfortunately, the part I cropped was still a little too long. Hence I decided to trim it a little more.

BAM!

I cut like an inch too much.





Oh why is my life not like a game where I could just load and everything will be fine again. >_< T_T +_+

Sigh.... so I spent another 2 hours saving the wig and it doesn't look that bad now (though I'd still prefer how it looked even though it was a little long). And to think I almost butchered my RM200 wig. >_<

Dunno what title

Dunno what to post also. Feel like posting but got no idea what to post about. Errr.... yay I leveled up my Lineage character after like a month stagnant. +_+ Errr... what else? Yay I spent like 1 whole hour this evening combing my wig, only to get 1/4 done (it's so tangled +_+ ). Yay there was a blackout earlier this afternoon (umm... yesterday afternoon actually) and it lasted for like 1 hour plus so I suffered like hell without my internet and PC. Took a really long bath cos it was freaking hot too. Yay tonnes of assignments to do and only 2 weeks left before due dates. Yay 2 weeks to Cyber Anime Week yet I'm hardly prepared for it. +_+ Yay the end.

*Lase to self: Oh my god it's like 4am right now. Sleep dammit >_<

Legolase might die

Heads up to the people who read my blog. Yes you read my title right. Legolase might die.

Legolase is in a critical state right now and wants all her readers to know it first, just in case something happens that Legolase is unable to give a proper goodbye. Legolase wants all of you to know that Legolase loves each and everyone one of you dearly and is really grateful for bearing with her crazy attitudes.

You might ask... what happens when Legolase dies?

Well, basically the same thing that happens when a person dies. Everything dies along.

Turning back time....

I really wish I could, now more than ever.

If I could turn back time, I'll make sure I never met him. I'll make sure I never knew him. I'll make sure I never got close to him.

PS: Some people just can't respect another person for the way he/she is and that sickens me to the bones.

Own wise words/quotes

Something I better write down now else I'll forget about it.

This wise words are copyrighted to Legolase. Please give credit when quoted.

"Self praise is no praise. It is motivation."

ROFLMAO. If you don't get it... forget about it. Another one:

"If you don't get it, forget it."

Also copyrighted to me.

*dies*

*SCREAMS*

UWAH~!!!! All the taggies in the world must have been boycotting me. Not only was my Lego-Taggie dysfunctional, I could not post in Edo's taggie either. And thinking that tag-board was down, I found Masami's to be working ok. So I posted there... 2 in the morning. And now I want to post a reply but it does not work AGAIN. ARGH~!!! What's wrong with me and tag boards? T_T This is so sad. I want to spam. Nyuuu.....

PS: Not to mention the stupid forum is down as well... I need to type. I need to type. Curse all keyboards in the world..... dunno why I said that.

I'm sad... *dies*

Confused

ARGH~!!!!! I still don't feel right anymore. >_< Nyuuuuu..... be it 2 posts before or the previous post.... something ain't right. Something ain't me. This is all just wrong and I got no idea what for the time being so I guess I'm stuck being confused for a while before I pull myself together again. I wanna go back to being the old Legolase..... nyuuuu.......

I don't even know who I really am
I never felt this confused before
And if I ever need someone to guide me along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?

+_+ What can I say? I'm addicted to Bleach's ending since god knows when. If you see someone suddenly humming or singing this song or Real Identity (Kaleido Star), you'll know it's me. Hmm.... Real Identity.... suddenly when typing that song title it seems so related to me. Nyehahahaa.... so maybe that's why both songs are in my head all the time and my current favourite sing along songs. XD

When you sabishii toki doushitemasuka
Never say sonna no wakaranai
Nemuru asobu magazine meguru
Sabishii toki wa sabishii yo
Mienai denpa ma kyou mo
Du du du du machi ni tobikau
Anyways, kokoro no battle
So many reasons hanashite

Errr.... I think I wrote the lyrics right. >_< As far as my memory serves me...

Who am I kidding?

Heh... referring to my previous post... who am I kidding? >_< I am an actress (yes, I'm a girl if you've yet to know +_+ ) and I shall remain one since the world is my stage. What do I mean by all these crap? Well, it means that my off-stage is done. It means that the previous post does not hold as much meaning as it did when I typed it anymore. Being off-stage for 2 days is somewhat a pain for me and I felt like I was so totally not being myself. Yes, this also means that there'll be no photos being posted here. Nyehehahaahha.... you want photos you got to ask from me personally. :p (someone knows he's gonna get a CNY photo very soon.... ^_^ remind me, kay?) BUT, this does not mean that Masami is any less cool then she already is. It's that we're different people and that's why I don't think I can be her. The world does not need another Masami anyways, right? But a Masami and a Legolase would work ok I guess. *evil grins* Bondage queen and errr..... dunno what name to give myself. >_< Thought of naming myself "bandage queen" but it's so... err.. Yuck. >_<

So yeah, those who managed to get to know me in that 2 days span when I was off-stage, kudos to you. To those who did not, well pity. Keep searching. >:)

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong
(source: Bleach ending)

(edited Bleach ending)
Nobody knows how I really am
I never felt this different before
And if I ever need someone to hold me tight
Who's gonna comfort me in those lonely nights?

Boaahahahahaa.... I'm crazy. =P This is the definition of me. Crazy. XD

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On a side note, yesterday was yet another prom for me and though I vowed to dance my heart out, the SUPER LOUD music just made my ears pop. Not to mention I already got a headache before that so yeah.... the sound was practically killing my brain. On a more positive note, I took super plenty pictures with friends and family alike. Er... only 1 family actually lah but she's DA BOMB~!!! Now just waiting for people to pass to me the pictures cos I did not bring any digicam (nor purse or anything else cos I thought I wanted to dance and bringing those things are a hassle especially when you ask someone to help jaga it cos then they cannot enjoy the dance). Anyways, I had loads of fun on my spinning head....

No more hide and seek

Ah well, I'm gonna come clear about the Legolase thing now. If you know me, cool. Know me. :D I won't hide anymore so there'll be no more bullshit and lying and such. All the lies I made before this.... a huge apology from me. If you do know me in person, come talk to me. :) I'll try not to shy away as I always have. XD (trying to get rid of that habit already) Try ah... no promises.

Why the sudden change? Well, actually I've been thinking about this for like the past month or so but today, I made my decision. Credit goes to Masami cos she somehow inspired me to come clean nowadays. Masami is my role model... she's super cool in writing and I hope I can be as good as her one day. She's super strong in saying her mind on what she stands for and don't give a damn when others do not agree to her way of thinking.

So yeah, I'm coming clean to anyone who wants to get to know me or found my blog in some magical way (ehem... using search engine and typing "Legolase" gives you my blog for the first hit XD ). Hence, I will use my blog to post photos of myself (if I think I want to lah.... wait people call me perasan pulak) and more of my real life (previously was also my real life lah but I did not post about a lot of stuffs) since this IS my blog and I want to reflect it back in the future on what I did and all. So yeah, I will post more of my life, my thinkings, my feelings, my achievements.... basically, everything me lah. XD

So....minna, yoroshiku ne. :p

I'll never be slim

Yeap, you heard me right. After starting my so-called diet program yesterday, I'm quitting it already. Heh. You must think I'm a loser, right? Well, think again smart-asses. I was forced to quit. Yes, you heard me. I'm not allowed to continue this program of mine because some people think it's hazardous to my health, that I would get gastric, called me stupid (shit, I so hate that), telling me that I think I'm damn smart and last but not least, telling me that my program would not work. Damn you. How the hell would you know since you forbid me to participate in it. How would you know whether it will work or not since I've only done it for 1 day. How? HOW? HOW?????

And shit if this is not enough, something frightfully important just got broke. Damn. I worked for almost 5 months on it and now it's gone in a few seconds. Worst thing was, he did not fess up~!!!! ARGH~!!!!

Damn today. I hate you today. I hate you March 01, 2005. I hate youuuuuu.....