Serves me right

/Is not hungry though it's past dinner time



I woke up at about 6.00am this morning and checked whether my handphone is fully charged. Seeing that it is, I offed the charger and unplugged it. As I was going back to sleep that last 30 minutes....

CRAP!!!!!!

I felt a really really really undescribable pain in my left leg. Shit. I grabbed the nearest pillow I could find and bit on it. Bit really hard. I took in the pain. I tried not to cry. I can't feel my left leg. I carried the said leg and dropped it to the floor. Dammit it hurts so bad. I almost cried. Really I did (almost cry).

I hate cramps.



"All I needed was the love you gave, all I needed for another day, all I ever knew... only you."

Yes, you may call me crazy

/Is still awake (this is not good)



Dammit I think it would not be a surprise if there were a "Craziest Kaleido Star fan" contest and I were to win it. I mean, cosplaying aside, what else can you do to show your passion for the anime? Watch episodes over and over again, hang posters on the wall (I don't have any, if anyone's wodnering), collect images till it eats a 250GB HDD (not me, thank you), make KS desktops, draw KS fanarts, etc right? How much more craze can it bring, right?

Simply put, I stood on my right left leg for a whole 15 minutes before I "gave up". Then I went forward to do the same on my right leg. I don't know. It can be just a 'test' to see if it even were possible. It would be me practicing to be a good Sora cosplayer. It can also mean I'm just having a huge ego issue to see if I can do it. 15 minutes might look short but trust me, it's damn bloody painful. And I did not regret doing it. In fact, I might actually do it daily. >____<

I seriously do not have any idea what I want to or think I can achieve by doing this. Maybe build some muscles and tone the leg, which is a good thing considering I'm like obsessed with getting 'lighter' nowadays. Speaking of which, I think I can last longer if I'm lighter since the feet would not hurt as much due to the weight.

I'll just let time tell. And this 'let time tell' thing leads me on to another personal issue where I think I got over it. Maybe it was just me being overly "perasan" about certain cases. Who knows? I will let time tell and in the meantime, not think about it to the extent of going crazy.

Sora cosplay update: Almost done with "Casual Clothes No. 1". Will post pictures of the clothes/costume if I have time/remember. Might just post it at MMU's Cosplay Blog. ^_^



"The sun.... has gone... to bed and so must I.... so long, farewell, auf wiedersehn, goodbye... goodbye.... goodbye... goodbye... goodbye."

Just a quiz

No header/footer. Just a quiz I took here.

This was my results:


So this is a good or bad thing? :-/

Dream

/Is kinda hot


I had a dream last night. Rather weird one you might add. Don't ask me how I can remember this dream... I just... remembered. ^_^;;

It was dark.... It was cold.... But there was a patch of bright light to my side. I walked towards the light. I stood in front of the light, and saw my silhouette. Weird. I turned around. Saw a bright light which almost blinded me. Then I heard... "Oi tepi lah. Why you standing there? We cannot see lah." What the heck??? *blur* Then I stepped aside. I looked at the patch of lighted area. I saw people moving. I saw.... an anime episode. >_< I'm in screening. My eyes miraculously adjusted to the darkness in a flash of a second. I saw someone walking down the "stairs". Can it really be? The figure looks like Pablo. The figure got nearer. OMG it's Pablo!! What the heck is she doing in Melaka, or in MMU, or in the screening? She said a quick genki "hi" to me and said she had to go already. I forgot the reason why she had to leave. I was confused. And then... I woke up.

Kinda weird dream but I felt down to earth I don't know why. Maybe that's why I can remember it quite clearly.


And no, I've not forgotten about these:
Upcoming:
- Pablo's prezzie (picture post) *halfway through taking the pictures*
- Meeting up with Terry *done*
- Picture post of Mavalia's gifts to me *done*
- Z-Board (attached with picure) *done*
- Cute techie guy XD
- Cute elevator guy quits T_____T
- Japanese guy visits ^___^ XD XD XD *2 posts involving this since he just visited again*
- What if... (would we be together?) *done*
- More Kaleido Star (pictures, cosplay and stuff) *still got more :p *



"Aku pulang... tanpa dendam... kuterima...kekalahanku..."

Optimus Keyboard

/Is bored



OMG this keyboard is so freaking SEXY!!!!! I'm so gonna find a way to purchase this keyboard if the money allows. Hope it's about the price of a Z-Board. WARGGHHHH~!!!!! I'm damn excited right now. I want want want want want it so much.

/adding to my birthday present list *sniggers*

Some pictures taken from the site.... (but I resized and uploaded to my photobucket because I don't wanna direct link ^_^ I so good :p )


See how sexy it is....



Uber slim and sexy... *drools*



Extra keys at the side



I can have a normal keyboard one second....



And a keyboard specifically for photoshopping another second...



And the next second is my gaming keyboard (featured here is for Quake)


God damn blardy sexy and cool, right? Makes me look down a little on Z-Board (though Z-Board is still rather cool to me due to the clip ons). I prefer this compared to the Z-Board is obviously cos of it's sexiness an also that they "improvized" on the clip ons and projected them instead. It's even better. And cooler. And I so want it dammit. Now, if all my readers chip in RM5, I think you guys can give me a belated birthday present? XD XD XD Just kidding leh.

Sigh.... if only this were a product made in Malaysia (of course we won't see those kinda things happening in the next 50 years or more), I'd have already contacted them and request to be their sales agent. LOL mana tau can get one for free. Yeah, I'm a cheapo so sue me. *bluek*

On a side note of the cheapo thing... I might just spend RM200 on buying some katanas from Jonker. If that is the price as Jin mentioned.



"You can tell everybody this is your song, it maybe quite simple but now that it's done, I hope you don't mind... I hope you don't mind... that I put down in words... How wodnerful life is, now you're in the world"

My letter to you

/Is frustrated the anime stopped at a cliffhanger



Oh for crying out loud. Look at you. Please grab a mirror and look at yourself. There is nothing there. Nothing. Stop pretending and imagining the impossible. You're only going to hurt yourself more. Maybe you're blind, maybe you don't have a mirror. You pretending to be cute turns me off most of the time. You act like you're so polite, so innocent when you're nothing more than a clumsy tomboy. Look at your face. With those pimples and those black marks. You think by wearing certain types of clothing, you look good. The fact is, you're just concealing what you do not want to show others. You're nothing but an actress everyday, putting on a show to save your own skin, to save your own face. Get a life. No one's gonna like you. You keep talking about how people should accept you for who you are and love you for you. Frankly speaking, if I were a guy, I'd be your friend but nothing more. I admit sometimes you can be a good friend. You're funny and have a good sense of humour most of the times. Problem is, you talk too much at times and people around you get bored. You like to act all silly, thinking it makes people happy but what we're doing is just talking behind your back, saying how stupid can you get. You think you're sociable but the fact is you are NOT. You might think you get along easy with people. Have you ever thought for a second that it could be that the other party is sacrificing sanity to not hurt your feelings? Get a grip woman. You are not, and never will be, girlfriend material. You always say you think you can be the best girlfriend in the whole world. But if you take 1 minute to analyse yourself, you'll see you cannot offer anything special to your boyfriend. What you have, others have it. What you don't have, others have. What makes you think you're so special? Get back into reality girl. Stop your fantasies and dreams and live in the real world. Where you feel pain when you pinch your own skin. Wake up!

/rolls eyes



"I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother, I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, I do not feel a thing, I'm your help, I'm your dream, I'm nothing in between, you know I wouldn't want it any other way"

OMG~!!!!! I fell in love again!!

/Is having goosebumps


Kyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaa~!!!!!! Kaleido Star wa DAISUKI~!!!! Thank you soooooo soooo sooo very much gen_tiger for giving me the links to the subbed version. OMG it totally rocks. I still get goosebumps although this was like the 40th time (?) watching the show. Everytime Layla is about to look at Sora's tenshi, I get goosebumps all over my body. Serious. And with the subtitles, it almost made me cry at the end. Awwwww.... what Layla said was.... so touching and... and... wa lau dunno how to put them into words. Something like feeling extremely happy I can just cry. I feel what Sora felt, really. It really is a magical anime. And it did bring out my 'tenshi no kokoro' (translation: angelic heart) as well. I'm kinda feeling hot right now what with all the gushing feelings inside me. It's wonderful I tell ya, wonderful. Sugoi sugoi sugoi!!! (quote from Sora :p)

**edited**

Picture~!!!!!! ROAR~!!!! Damn love this scene man... damn damn damn damn damn love it. The emotions are soooooo pure. So beautiful. Utsukushii to yasashii desu.



**done editing**

One thing though... I noticed when I watched the English subbed version, I concentrate less on the show itself and thus, I do not feel as excited as I did when I watched the chinese subbed version. Probably it's because I focus more on the anime itself if I watch raw/non-english subbed. So watching this version has it's boring parts because I was concentrating on reading the translation more than I was watching the show. This certainly explains why most of the time I miss certain parts of an anime (and notice it if I watch for a 2nd time). Gah.

On the other hand, I'm actually very very very very very very very x10000 happy that what I deciphered from watching the chinese subbed (which is just as good as watching raw) is about 75%-80% correct. OMG!!!! I'm like so happy you know? I know I can't understand when Sora said, "motto jiyuu ni enjitemiyou" (i think that's what she said lah) just cos I've not heard some words before. And also the last part when Layla said Sora is no longer her dream, but her pride and joy. Cos yeah, I can't understand the words. Gah, my vocabulary is still weak. ROFL I actually thought Layla said, "Anata wa mou watashi no yume ja nai. Anata wa watashi no kokoro" which translates to "You're not my dream anymore. You're my heart" so it was weird. Then now I found out she meant "pride and joy" but I still can't catch that last word. Something like "kokori" now that I listen carefully. Ah what the heck, I'm still damn happy most of my own translations (in my head) were accurate... or near accurate). Happy happy happy~!!!!! Hontou ni totemo ureshii shii shii!!

/drifts off in her own world


"Daremo sagashiteru yume wa kitto aru, doko ka ni aru... negai ga itsuka kanau made, hitori janai sa"
(translation: Anyone's searching dream is there, somewhere... as long as the dream is not fulfilled, you're not alone)

Ok... so my translation sucks. I understand myself enough lah. I find it hard to put them into words though I understand it in my mind. Somehow now, I respect translators very much. *two thumbs up*

I don't know

/Is confused


I'm so totally confused right now. Confused about a lot of things. Confused on my feelings. Confused about my dedication towards the event in 3rd trimester. Confused on where my commitment lies.

I can feel something one day, and nothing the other day. I can feel connected one minute, and so distant the other minute. What do I actually want? What do I want to feel? How do I deal with this? Can I live with it if I don't go for it? Can I live with myself if I do go for it and it fails? I just don't know. I don't know. One half is eager, the other half is scared. One half is saying "finally", another is saying "no way".

As for the event.... I'm not feeling connected to it anymore. The thought of not being committed to it arose. I don't know why. Perhaps it's because it is now a 2 day event. Maybe it's because the cosplay is at night. It can be because I suddenly feel such a huge pressure. I don't know... the thought of pulling out just came about. And I'm seriously considering right now.

I just....

don't know.


"....."

Photo blog

/Is still deciding whether to go shopping today or not



The long awaited.... wait, everything on my blog is long awaited thanks to my procrastination "ability" waakakakakakaka.....

Anyways, the awaited photo blog!!! XD


Masami's prezzie

Presents from Masami.... thanks very much girl. Luv ya. *muacks*


Soooo cute, right? He's sitting on top of my monitor since that day till now. Dammit why he sooooooo cute and cuddly and soft and... argh~!!!! *starts molesting doggie followed by kissed* :p I luv him a lot. It's a beanie also so everyday I picit the stomach. =D Have not named him though... not sure if I will ^_^


Another view.... XD Damn cute, right? Right? Right? You cannot say no!

Now guess who's hiding below my monitor?


It's Quiggle!!!! Although my pet Neopet is a Shoyru, this Quiggle so damn cute wei. not like the ones on the site (http://www.neopets.com) at all. This one much much cuter and look less of a frog. And it's BLUE!!! How can it NOT be great. XD

Almost the same view.... look at how big the mouth is XD My brother wanted to curi from me also. >_> Baka niisan, shine.


Now stop staring at my other messy stuffs under my monitor (eg: clips,etc)

/starts picit-ing doggie again.

SO CUUUUTTTTEEEEEEE~!!!!!!!!


Z-Board


Yeah, my baka brother went and bought a Z-Board (waste of money if you asked me) and he's so hyped about it because you can clip on different errr... set of keys on it. The one in the picture is just a normal keyboard (with some added stuffs - which is quite cool) but what I like most is that it's black. Sleek and sexy baybeh. And there's the gaming "clip" thingie but he's not playing any FPS games so... it was not fixed. He's still waiting for the WoW keyset though so it's much better and easier to play WoW (or so he says).


How did he get it? Since it's not available in Malaysia (as far as I know), he asked his friend (who happens to be working in UK for 2 months) to help him get it. And then it was passed to a KL friend and then he had to wait for his KL friend to give it to him. Costs about RM200+ I think....


WTH is that?





OMG what the heck is that???? It looks really... naughty, right? Yuhi even said it was a condom ROFL. But it is NOT!!!

Let's open it up...



Jeng jeng jeng (typical malay term - no offence intended at all, i use it all the time)



ROFL. It's just my lozenges I had back then when I was sick. Those who thought it was a condom... hmph.. shame on you. Perverts. Everytime think of these stuffs only. Sigh.... tsk tsk tsk.

=P

Kill me muahahahahahaaaaaaaa......



"Keitai off-te ai no charge shite.... yasashisa dake ja iyasanai itami mo aru kara, we are alone sure chigau.... what's going on koukai no hate ni, deau... true heart... naitemo warattemo I'll be with you..."

After 5 years I got it back

/Is listening to her own recording of a song



Referring to the title.... what did I get back?

Well, it's not really that I lost something. It's more of... I thought I was young back that and I thought those weird feelings are just.... weird back then and which I've outgrown. Guess I was wrong.

It was in Form 4 when I had these feelings. And I thought that was a once in a lifetime feeling. But recently I got it back again and it kinda hurts in one way, but a very nice feeling in another. I feel confused at times, excited at times. I feel happy at times, sad at times. God, I've never been so undecisive (and yes, I am a heck of an undecisive person) and confused before. What has come over me? +___+

Oh, and this feeling.... I think I know what it is. I've only felt it twice (this being my second time) and I can say (with 80% confidence) that this can be what they call "Doki doki feeling". At least that's what I think it is. Just did not expect it to hurt that much... yes, the chest hurts... it's painful. >_<

Ah well, putting that matter aside.... here are 2 pictures I simply wanna share with my readers, simply because I'm so generous XD XD


OMG Rufus!!!!!!!!


Someone PLEASE PLEASE PLEEEAAAASSSEEEEEEEEE get me this cloak. I will love you forever.




"Have you ever been in love? You can touch the moonlight. When your heart's shooting stars, you're holding heaven in your arms. Have you ever been in love?"

FFVII: Advent Children

/Is very weak thanks to bishie overload



I really should take MC tomorrow. Reason: Bishie overdose. ROFLMAO. Too bad I can't cos I made promises to do some packing (yes, more back breaking work) tomorrow with Doris and Dorin so.... ah well. Tonight was superb. If only there was a picture of my face, I could post it here.... or maybe not. :p Hati cair I tell ya.

OMG Vincent~!!!!!

OMG Ruffus~!!!!

OMG Reno~!!!!!

And I can only find a picture of Vincent (who is so freaking kakkoi, ok????) so I'll share. Kyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....................



Oh wait... kekeke... with more search I found more bishie pictures XD XD XD

Sharing time...

OMG Reno~!!!!!!!


No uncloaked one.... T____T


He maybe small but he's kinda cute in some ways XD


2 things you'll note about this movie if you watch Disney cartoons and anime.... OMG Lion King~!!!! OMG Kaleido Star's Tenshi no Waza~!!!!



"Doki doki doki doki doki <-- the sound of my heart"

TIRED!!!!

/Is half dead



I'm having back strains right now. I can back from work, bathed and slept till 9pm before waking up to eat dinner. My back still hurts and I hope this is only a temporary thing. I have a red mark on my hand which looks like it got whipped or something O.o Hahahaha....

/looks at right wrist

Yeap, it's still there.

So people must be wondering (or stopped reading maybe cos this post i boring?) why am I experiencing all of these? Cos I had to do hard labour (or that was what my senior called it ROFL). Basically we had to find old documents for some matters and these documents are not light. And it is not in the same building as where we work. So imagine me taking the elevator down to ground floor, going out of the plant, climbing up the overhead bridge and crossing over to the other side, going into that super cold room, finding the documents. The documents are stored in different labelled boxes. The boxes are stacked on one another. +_____+ So yeah I cursed everytime I see those boxes which are right at the bottom cos I had to remove the top 3 "layers" before I can reach the final "layer" (boxes are stacked up to 4 boxes). And the worst part was..... there were 2 boxes labelled 07-01-2004 and I did not know the desired documents are in which box. And BOTH boxes are at the bottom most of the lot. GAH~!!! And I HAD to choose the wrong one. Sial.

So basically I was carrying and transferring heavy boxes from one pile to other, stacking them up and replacing them back to their original positions after obtaining the necessary documents. And in the process, my wrist was semi-lying on the corner of one box and the box I'm carrying slipped so my wrist got scratched, giving me the red line I see now. T___T Macam kena dera.

And i was rushing and swift-walking everywhere I go just because time is short and I HAd to get everything done by 5.20PM. I managed to finish all at about 5.00PM Phew... what a ride. And since I was busy doing all these, some of the postponed work left on my desk had to be cleared and hence I stayed back till 6.10PM I usually don't complain about going back late but today was an exception just because I was all dusty and sticky and very tired (physically, mentally tired I can take for another few hours) and just wanted to get a good bath.

So there it is... proof. Proof that I am getting older each day and that my body is not as how it was 4 years ago (when I was carrying tonnes of books daily without breaking a sweat). Ah... life...

Damn... I wanted to write something else for the last paragraph and AGAIN I forgot about what to write. Blardy hell next time I should jot it down somewhere first.



"If we both were born in another place and time, this moment might be ending in a kiss. But there you are with yours and here I am with mine, so I guess we'll just be leaving it as this...."

Doki doki feeling + KS OMG!!!!

/Is waiting for Kaleido Star episode 47 to complete downloading



I can't go to sleep last night. I keep thinking a lot during work. I get this strange feeling. I even thought to myself.... maybe it can happen. And then I looked into the mirror a few hours ago, and everything just broke into pieces. There's no way I can be that happy. There's no way it would happen to me.... not now at least. thought I had such huge confidence but a look in a mirror crushed me. T_T It is sad, yes it is. I will work hard, yes I will. I'll let time tell and let the future reveal itself. No point thinking too much when in the end, it was always just in your head, nothing else.

OMG why can't the download be any faster????? OMG OMG. Finally Freedom Rise released episode 47 for Kaleido Star and here I am still waiting for it to complete. GAH~!!! Faster faster faster. Hayaku...... Thanks gen_tiger for mentioning about episode 48 and all... ^_^



"But if I let you go will I ever know, what my life would be holding you close to me, will I ever see you smiling back at me..oh yeah... how will I know.... If I let you go"

The smallest things make me happy

/Is glad the weekend is here



As the title says.... the smallest things make me happy. Really. Look at these:





After so long, I visited neXt-Boards again and... people remembered me. ^_^ And I dunno, I just felt very happy about this. Don't ask me why. Maybe I am kinda perasan a person. But it's just nice you know? Made me smile so it should be a good thing, right?

So, thanks to those who said those things up there. The pcture is edited to keep them anonymous just in case they want to stay that way.


On a side note (no, I'm not posting on those I've listed just yet), I thought about posting something on what people should not get me for my birthday and yeah, I know people might go "Like hell anyone wants to give you anything" or "Not that we care or know when your birthday is since you don't wanna tell" or something like that.... but just for those who think of getting me something as a present, here are some of the presents which I would apreciate it if you avoided. ^_^

1) Watch - as of right now, my watch is still working fine and I predict it to remain fine for the next 3 years at least so please don't give me a watch cos then I would have to choose which watch to wear when I go out and I don't wanna favour one over the other.

2) Perfume - Thank you people who are thoughful enough to want to buy me perfume (or maybe they think I stink rofl) but I already have ample perfume to last me for quite a few years, and they are the fragrant I adore as well. So you can skip this as a present as well. ^_^

3) Money - I do hope my brother reads this cos I DON'T WANT YOUR MONEY just cos it's not personal enough and I prefer to have something else rather than money. So what if I can buy anything I like with money? So what if I can use that to buy my dream present? There is no sweat or hard work thinking about what present to buy so you choose the easy way out of giving me cold hard money. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate it. I just would prefer if you had put in more effort to getting a present for me. Heck, it can be a cheap one I don't mind but the thought really counts I think. To me at least.

4) Necklaces - I have quite a few, and it's not that I don't like them. I like all my necklace presents I gotten from various people. It's just that I have this "sickness" or "weird thingie" where whenever I wear a necklace, I can't really breath well and it will make me giddy or drowsy and even to the extent of falling sick with headache. Seriously, I'm not kidding. Hence, I won't be able to put your necklace to full use, nor will I be able to show it off to others. And I feel sad not doing justice to your present. So.... if you can avoid it, do avoid it. I do still wear necklaces but maybe only once or twice a week which is rare. T_T No justice I tell ya. It's the curse of my stupid neck I tell ya.

5) Books - Yes, Pablo might kill me for this and so might Lee Na (cos she gave me a book before) but I admit I am no reader nor a bookworm. I hardly have time for books after my games, surfing, animes, cosplay, etc. So yeah, try and skip these too. I do have a thing for mystery books and horror books (damn I still love the Cataluna Chronicles) but it's just not really my thing nowadays. Perhaps in the future when I grow out of games and internet (which I hardly think will be anytime so soon), I would go back to reading. Hence, you can see why my grasp of the language is not as good as others who read. *shy face*

6) Coloured pens (like anyone's gonna buy that for me lah right now) - Cos I still have tonnes since my secondary school days when I was a coloured pens freak and spent about RM400 on colour pens. +___+ So banyak nowadays. Some dried up also T_T


For now, that's what I can think of. I might post more if I think of anymore to highlight. =) On the other side of the coin, what you can get for me could be something like.....

1) A packet of RM1 nasi lemak from the pakcik who sells in front of Southern Hospital at about 5.30pm

2) An electric sewing machine (which is god damn blardy expensive sial)

3) A costume (but you would have to get my measurements, ne?)

4) Strappy shoes which has those strings you can tie yourself, and the strings should be very long to reach the knee (still looking for them... those I saw all short lah the strings... dammit)

5) Wigs (but you would need to know what kinda wig I want and what colour)

6) A kg of seedless crunchy red grapes

7) A treadmill (still waiting for my dad to buy it >_> ) so I can exercise while watching anime

8) A new printer with at least 4 cartridges (but i might be getting this one myself ;p )

9) A digital camera (nyehahaha.... maybe I can hint this to my brother... pass down your old one - Ixus 500 - also can lah so can lah... )

10) A car - yeah, highly unlikely.... not even from my parents, nor would I want them to get for me one cos.... I find it a waste of money since I can still drive my car (though it's old and the air cond is not functioning properly and the paint is bad and a lot more things to write but I don't wanna kutuk my car too much) but if I win a car on my birthday itself, that would be great. XD


And please, to all my readers who have given me presents before, do not think I do not like any of them. I love each and every present you gave. Seriously, I'm not kidding. I'm keeping all of them nicely (unless some earrings which took a swim in a river in Perak), even those which are accidentally broken. I still keep them and will always keep them. I treasure them, really. The first list was to avoid people of getting me the wrong presents (but I'd still apreciate it and cherish it) and the second list is just to pamper myself bwahahahahaa.....

I actually wanted to write a few lines on something but I can't seem to remember what was it. Damn. Damn damn damn. *after 1 minute of thinking* Damn I can't remember. Bloody short term memory. >_>



"Call the man who deals with love beyond repair, he can heal the world of hearts in need of care, shine the light ahead where the future is unclear.... call the man, he's needed here"

/kills Syaoran

/Is sad the weekend is over



Nuff said








"I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable, I'm not trying to make you anything at all. But this feeling doesn't come along everyday, and you shouldn't blow the chance when you got the chance to say..."

Meeting Pablo

/Is at work (lunch break)



Event: Bon Odori
Place: Matsushita Sports Centre, Shah Alam
Time: Night

Finally, a day where I meet Pablo in person. To tell the truth, I was kinda scared and there was a part of me who does not want to meet her. ^^; Maybe I'm scared I can't live up to her expectations. And because I'm meeting more than one person there, and also going there with some people, I'm also afraid I am not able to give her more attention than I should. With all these worries in the bus (on the way up), I secretly hoped she cannot make it. +____+ Gomen Pablo.

Anyways, she did manage to go there and we did meet. Heh, the meeting was very... naughty (on my part). I basically crept behind them (she was with Rizal) and knocked her head with my fan. XD Man, I'm naughty. Both turned around, one was smiling, one was not. Rizal greeted me and Pablo looked as though she was about to cry. OMG what did I do??? There goes her first impression of me. Lucky for me (before I felt any more guilty than I already am), she was just acting and smiled a second later and gave me a hug. Err... kinda squeezed her too tight (according to her) without me knowing. Aha... gomen ne. Maybe it was all the experience I got hugging Chiu Lin (who hugs even tighter) back in those years. Then after the hug, she gave me a birthday present!! ARGH~!!! I feel so malu and like... wa lau wei I never get for her anything also. +_+ Feel so bad nyuuuu.... you'll see how I feel (even worst man) when I opened her present in the bus.

Anyhows, we proceeded to the stalls and all, and Rizal took some shots (which I look FREAKING FAT... seriously, even ibanez agreed) and we acted all small and kiddy like till (I think) Rizal got fed up of us being so childish he gave up on taking shots. Wahahaha... we are the evil. Food. Crowd. Crowd. Crowd. Gah, we got seperated when buying food and the only direction I could give was "Near the sign board, up a hill, got palm trees." Right.... later found them near the sign board, up a slightly smaller hill (myself, Nikki and Shu Yin climbed till the tip... so to speak :p ) and under palm trees. Meh, me and my directions ROFL.

Anyhows, I kinda forced them to go dance and shoo-ed them away. Err... kinda feel bad now. Hope they don't think I'm halau-ing them. +_+ Met up with CF people (read the previous post for more details) and then after the dance they joined us back again. Took shots with EMiNA Cyber peeps as well as those few EMiNA peeps we can find. God why my Shun so gay-looking. T____T Damn sad as a *cough* godmother. >____< Again here, I felt bad, not only to Pablo and Rizal but also to Nikki and Shu Yin cos they don't really know the CF people and they were still with me and you can imagine the guilt I felt. Gah. Gomen nasai guys. I knew somewhere deep inside I would have prefered to come alone but I did not. And I think I disappointed them (the 4 I mentioned). +_+ Can someone give me some suggestions on how to overcome this sort of situation? Cos this is definitely not the first time I've been in this shit and everytime I feel so bad but have no idea how to make up to either party. Gah.

The departure was in a rush and I did not really give a proper farewell to Pablo and Rizal. Again, my humblest apologies. All in all, I know Pablo is a super genki girl, even genki-er than me! Do I feel threatened? Nah. She's just special. XD Stay genki always Pablo. AND... I regretted to even hope for her not to make it to Bon Odori. *bashes own mind* I'm really glad she made it there and it was really nice meeting her. Would have regretted much if she did not come.

So here's to you Pablo *kampai* and may we meet again, somewhere in a far away galaxy where Ewoks rule the land. XD



"Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight, till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight. And there's no where in the world I'd rather be.... than here in my room, dreaming about you and me."